Tired

Why can't being fat be the standard for health? Okay, you can see where this post is going, so if you're not in the mood for listening to a bunch of cranky behavior, then you can come back tomorrow when I'm sure I'll be a lot better ;) Seriously, how I long for those days when Rubenesque women were sought after and idolized! I am just tired today. Not in a sleep deprived way, but an eating and lifestyle way. I'm tired of trying so hard. I'm tired of spending every waking moment watching what I eat. I'm tired of counting POINTS and calories. I'm tired of exercising like a nut (hear that Jillian! * notice I did not scream it for fear that she may hear me and make a house call to kick my butt in person!!) I'm tired of looking at my body and not really "seeing" the changes. I'm tired of wearing the same clothes over and over because I don't want to spend the money to invest in clothing that I may not be able to wear in a few months. Ugh. Why can't fat be "hot"?? Like, hey, look at her big bumpy cellulite - she's hot! Why can't eating 5-9 servings of cheese and bread be the health requirement instead of fruits and vegetables??!! *sigh* I know why. I just wish this wasn't so hard sometimes. Alright, enough with the belly-aching, here's the food...



This morning, after a 40 minute run outside and a Level 1 Shred, I was in the mood for something different, so I made a Banana PB2 Smoothie with 1/2 banana, 2 tbsp. PB2, 3/4 c. unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze and a bunch of ice cubes. Yummy, frosty and 3 POINTS...







Lunch was a little earlier than usual; the smoothie only lasted so long! I made a turkey hummus wrap using 2 oz. turkey, 1 tbsp. hummus, lettuce and tomato rolled in a La Tortilla Factory Smart and Delicious Wrap (3 POINTS). I had a side of carrots and instead of my usual chips, I went with a Fiber One Vanilla Yogurt with 1/2 of a Kashi Pumpkin Spice Flax Granola Bar that I crumbled and mixed in (that was great!). A delicious 5 POINT lunch...



For snack, I went with Kashi Honey Sunshine Cereal. I have been dying to try this. I have seen it on many blogs, most recently on my girl, Heather's blog. This cereal ROCKS! I had it with 1 c. unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze and 1/2 c. blueberries for 3 POINTS...

After snack time, I went outside with little daughter and jumped on the trampoline for 30 minutes! Whoa, that is some workout - I was huffing and puffing! No wonder my kids are so skinny!

Dinner tonight was a good use of leftover chicken : chicken and broccoli stirfry over ramen noodles. The look on the husband and daughters faces when I told them what we were having showed me this would be a tough sell.

Me : You guys, it's the leftover chicken from last night that you loved and I just mixed it some broccoli...

LD: Eeew. I hate this.

Husband: Girls, hasn't Mom been great lately? She has been making all the things we like; now we have to eat what she wants tonight (uh, thanks??)

BD: Oooh, I love this dinner, Mom! (have I said that she is my favorite daughter???)

Anyway, they choked it down (except for little daughter who worked her Dad over for a pb&j). I thought it was delicious! Sorry you won't be able to tell by this terrible pic that is oddly bright and could possibly burn your retinas when you look at it; don't know what's up with my "dinnertime lighting"...

Here is the package of ramen noodles that I used. I forgot to get the nutritionals for you, but I know that the whole package is only 5 POINTS since they are baked not fried. I used one package for the 4 of us. My portion of dinner came to 8 POINTS...

So, if you stayed to listen to my crabbyness - thanks for hangin with me! I got in this funk today after a) getting on the scale and not liking what I saw, b) taking a gander at my body and not liking what I saw and c) being sick of the food I have been eating - I think I may need to change something up - not sure what though . Guess these days happen. I plan on snapping out of it; what choice do I have, right?? Complaining about it isn't going to make anything happen any faster or better. Just gotta keep on keeping on...

Looking forward to Biggest Loser tonight! See ya tomorrow =]