Houston, We Have A Problem

A communication problem.  A disconnect.  A MAJOR malfunction.

Remember that whole “listening to your body’s cues” and “paying attention to hunger signals” ? 

WHAT???  HUH????  WHAT DID YOU SAY???

Yeah, my body is so deaf and in need of a hearing aid right now.  I am just eating up a storm with reckless abandon.  Bad stuff.  I know I’m not classifying my food as “good” and “bad” anymore, but it definitely deserves a “bad” label when all the choices revolve around this…

and this…

I did manage a couple of semi-healthful meals… this…

and this…

But, the majority of the day revolved around junk.  And for no apparent reason other than the fact that it was there.

Exercise even fell by the wayside;  all I got in was a quick Shake…

Which does seem like a ridiculous contraption that wouldn’t do much of anything, but my arms do burn even after I’m done.

But, that was it. 

I’m a little disappointed in myself, however, I’m not completely discouraged and lost.  I can only try to bounce back and make good choices today.  Even if it’s just one meal, it’s better than nothing.  It all counts.  One meal.  One step at a time.

Houston?  Come in, Houston?  Copy that :)

ONE GOOD THING:  Even though I didn’t make good choices, I don’t feel a complete sense of fear and frustration.  I realized that I can get myself out of this pattern and back to eating right.  I don’t feel overwhelmed, so far gone and that “ I’ll never be able to do this” feeling.  For once, I didn’t have that fear that I’ll go back to the way I used to eat and gain back all my weight.  No going back.  Onward…

Have a great day, everyone!  HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

I've Got Some 'Splainin To Do

Boy oh boy, what a whirlwind weekend! It was big daughter's birthday and we had lots going on. I did my best to try to keep up with my food pics, but some things got out of hand in the eating dept. and I did not take pics of those violations! Ugh, and I was so happy to hit my 70 lb. mark and there I went screwing that up! Phew, talk about falling off the wagon. I fell off and rolled down a big hill (covered in chocolate) while the wagon went speeding off in another direction ;) Time to restart today before things go too far. So, since I've been a bad blogger these past few days, I'll try to catch you up to date on my food stuff : the good, the bad and the ugly...

Friday

For breakfast, I had a Weight Watchers Petite Bagel with Laughing Cow Light and 1 0z. smoked salmon with a sliced pear on the side for 3 POINTS...



Lunch started off good with a serving of zucchini lasagna and a 2 oz. ciabatta roll. The lasagna was even better the second day; I would definitely make this again! A delicious 7 POINT meal...

I spent this whole day cleaning the house, running last minute errands and preparing for big daughter's celebrations. She had invited a couple of friends to hang out and stay overnight, so I was busy getting things in order for the girls' night. I knew we were going to be having our usual Friday night Pizza a bit late tonight, so I had an afternoon snack of some pretzels and a lite string cheese for 3 POINTS...

Again, I learned that this afternoon snack seems to be a trigger. I had a MILLION more handfuls of pretzels after that! I'm not sure why; I think I was experiencing some anxiety about getting things done or maybe I just had some nervous energy thing going on, but it pretty much went downhill from there. I kept picking on other snacks that I had out for the girls, like cheese curls and mozzarella sticks!

Then, it was time for pizza. I ended up having a slice, some carrots and 2 more mozzarella sticks (there was no more counting of POINTS at this time)...

After pizza, I hooked up the chocolate fountain that I ran all over the universe to find. The girls were really excited about this! I had a tray full of dippers that included marshmallows, strawberries, grapes, bananas, potato chips, mini oreos, cake squares and pretzels. They went to town! I joined in the fun; the strawberries and pretzels were my fave!

Finally, I cleaned up and sent the girls off to bed. It was way to late to do anything, but plop into bed! So no blogging and no SHRED! ugh!!!! There was even no shower - eewwww!

Saturday

Okay, new day - new start, right? Nooooooo. Here's the good: Weight Watchers Petite Bagel, egg white, 2% cheese and slice of center cut bacon with a side of grapes for 4 POINTS...

Still good: Arnold Sandwich Thin topped with PB2 and Smucker's Sugar Free Grape Jam with a side of sliced apple for 3 POINTS...

After lunch, I began making some appetizers for big daughter's birthday dinner that night. The grandparents were planning on coming to her basketball game and then back to our house for dinner, so I wanted to have things prepared. I made fresh salsa served with Tostitos Baked Scoops tortilla chips...

and a white bean dip served with cut-up Arnold Sandwich Thins and crackers...

Both were low POINT options, but it all adds up if you keep diggin in it! Which was what I did... a lot! That was "the bad".

For the first course of our dinner, I made Dreamfield's Penne Pasta with my marinara sauce. I only had a small serving...

I also made chicken cutlets...

roasted sweet potatoes with olive oil...

and Gram's broccoli with olive oil and garlic...

and we had an amazing rustic Italian bread...

Here was my plate of "a little of everything"...

Not too bad, right?? You see by my menu that I really was trying to make something that big daughter loved but, also something that was POINT-friendly. This menu had success written all over it!!! But, then came.......THE UGLY.....

So bad, but oh, so good! I broke out the chocolate fountain again for dessert with this tray of dippers...

I ate a ton of dipped pretzels and strawberries. I tried the grapes, mandarin oranges and marshmallows, too!

And we had to have birthday cake! My Mom made this adorable cake that just screams "eat me"...

And I DID...

After all this, I felt whale-ish for sure. Disgusting. To top it all off, there was also no 5k Saturday and NO SHREDDING this day either! Aaahhhh! That's 2 days of no exercise -yikes!

So, that brings me to today. It's Sunday and I knew that I HAD to get back to the program today; back to the routine. I felt so out of sync these past few days, but I guess life gets in the way sometimes. I headed to the basement for a 5K Sunday which was a bit weak, but I did it. Then, it was an "on program" breakfast of Puffins (only have cinnamon left and I don't love these, but the plain ones are great), 1 c. of blueberries and 1 c. unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze for 3 POINTS...

A little while after that, I made sure to Shred. Can you believe I did Level 3 ????? Yes, that's right! I felt that I should torture myself!!! But, I ended up really liking it! It didn't feel it was as bad as Level 2 for some reason. It was a nice change from Level 1 and had a good amount of ab work and focused on "plyometric" exercises for the cardio. So, for our last week of Shred, don't be a chicken like I've been - give the Level 3 a try. Let's rock out these last 6 days of the challenge and "finish strong" like Jillian says!

For lunch, I went with a good old ham wrap, a serving of Baked Lays and a sliced apple for 5 POINTS...

I also had a Kashi TLC Fruit and Grain Bar in the raspberry chocolate flavor for 2 POINTS...

I spent the rest of the afternoon lounging around with the daughters and watching movies. It was a nice, lazy day!

When dinner time rolled around, I remade some leftover chicken cutlets into chicken parmesan by topping the cutlets with some sauce and an ounce of mozzarella. I also had a side of peas and a 2 oz. slice of the rustic bread for a tasty 10 POINT dinner...

No dessert tonight. I think I've had enough the past couple of days. There were probably more bites of chocolate and handfuls of M&M's that I may have "forgotten" about too in those days. So, that' s the scoop! Hope I didn't bore you with this super long history of my overindulgences these days! I'm definitely ready for the "detoxing" now. I feel like crap. Why does it taste so good at the time, but makes you feel so yucky after? Well, I guess it's all in the AMOUNT that you "taste", right??? I'm gonna try not to think of the scale this week and what number may await me. I'm just going to refocus and hope that the LARGE HUNK of leftover birthday cake that is eyeing up my hips looking for a new home, will "accidentally" fall into the trashcan by the morning :0)