So glad that’s over! Anyone else feel that way about Halloween? The influx of candy had been building all week, then big daughter got sick with the flu and my stress/emotional eating spell began. Friday and Saturday were a blur of chocolate, sugar, cheese, bread, pizza and chips. There was no semblance of health involved in any of the choices I made. Actually, there were a few meals that I attempted to pull together something healthy, but ended up eating other things because eating something healthy didn’t even taste good. I even ditched the exercise. I have to say that I was scared for a minute. I thought that I had gone completely off the deep end; you know, that slippery slope that sends you back to old eating habits and 70 pounds heavier in no time flat. *insert horror movie scream*. Terrifying.
Saturday afternoon, I was doing some cleaning of clutter and came across a few pictures of myself. There aren’t very many of me during the “fat years” which was a span of 10 years. I was the one usually behind the camera. I often joke to the husband that he could easily “off me” and there would be no evidence that I existed because most of the pictures of our family vacations and outings with the daughters are just of him and the girls! I did happen to come across a few while cleaning out a bookcase and I was stunned to see the pictures of myself. In the pictures, I had a smile on my face, but I knew that I hated the way that I looked…
I realize while looking at these, that there is no going back for me. I cannot be that person again. I won’t do it. But, when I have gone this far off the deep end this weekend, it is so hard to get back on track. How do I go back to trying to eat intuitively when I dropped it like a hot potato? A fried one? There was only one answer…
Nike knows their stuff :)
That brings me to today. I am stoked for a new month! It’s gonna be a busy one and I’m going to think long and hard about how I will manage the eating season. I know the issue is not the food, it’s how I react to the emotions and stress in my daily life. I haven’t quite figured that part out yet, but I will keep on keepin’ on:)
First thing on the agenda was to fill up this guy…
I’ve been really slacking on my water which is weird since I’ve always been a huge chugger.
Then, I tackled the first meal of the day –breakfast. Nothing was appealing to me. I still had sugar coursing through my veins! I was going to skip it altogether, but know that usually comes back to haunt me!
I decided on a tasting breakfast plate…
It got better from there! Lunch was a bowl of black bean soup…
and a good hunk of cornbread…
The afternoon was long and filled with bowls of candy in every room! I opted for some skim milk and a Ginger Apple Oat Breakfast Cookie…
Dinner was a family favorite – Chicken Cutlets and broccoli. Instead of offering rustic Italian bread on the side, I decided to try out this Beer Bread mix from Trader Joe’s…
Just calls for a bottle of this to make it…
I haven’t had much luck with Beer Bread before. The husband and daughters have not been fans, so I held my beer breath on this one! It baked up beautifully in only 45 minutes and I didn’t detect much of a beer smell or taste at all. Everyone loved it! It was a nice, dense and slightly chewy bread. I think it would make for a great grilled cheese, too.
I served myself a small slice with dinner…
but dug into another slice before putting the remainder of the loaf away!
JUST DO IT!!!
ONE GOOD THING: I realized today that I can do this. I can get back on track. I can keep the weight off. I can do it…for life :)
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