Shot Myself In The Foot

Or in the rear, depending on how you want to look at it :( What this means is that, my main meals had all the components for a good 'on program' eating day, however I completely messed up in the snack department. The first thing that threw me off, was that stinkin book, Twilight! It was so good, I had to finish it this morning. So I lounged around all morning reading and didn't get around to breakfast or working out until way late. I ended up just having a slice of pumpkin cranberry bread and an orange ...



I decided to save working out for later. I was even debating on bagging it altogether today! Shocking, I know! It seems that if I don't "just do it" in the morning, I can easily talk myself out of it later! I did end up doing about 35 half -hearted minutes on the elliptical.

Anyway, lunchtime rolled around and I went with a Health is Wealth Chicken Free Patty on an Arnold Sandwich Thin with lettuce and a smear of TJ's red pepper spread. I was in the mood for lots of crunch, so I had carrots and a serving of Kettle Baked Potato Chips. Not bad for 5 POINTS...

Then came, TOM. I know that is TMI; sorry :0! I knew that things may go downhill from here because I was feeling 100% munchie and I had not many Weekly Allowance Points left. I thought maybe I should make some popcorn for volume and saltiness craving, but I went against my initial instinct and had a Weight Watchers Berries and Cream Yogurt with 3/4 c. Puffins for 2 POINTS...

I also had a cup of coffee and then had about 200 snacks!!! Okay, not 200, but A LOT! Way more than I have POINTS for. It was a bad scene. It's very embarassing to admit to all this, but I am trying to be as honest as possible in documenting this weight loss journey. I wish I could say I eat perfectly and on program all the time, but there are times I am just WAAAAAY out of control. I was semi-aware of what I was doing at the time. Sometimes, though, it almost seems as if I am in a trance; moving from pantry to fridge, munching and munching. Then, I become too far gone to care and I just finish it off. I snapped out of it at dinner. I planned some chicken cutlets, baked sweet potato chips, broccoli and 1/2 garlic roll. Back to "healthy", right???

No dessert tonight! Not even sounding good at this point. I do this dumb thing every once in a while where I'm almost to my next milestone (this time it's only 1 lb. from a 70 lb. loss) and I end up going overboard with eating which makes me miss the target. Ugh. So frustrating! But, this is a journey. I know I'll get passed it. I'll refocus and I'll get there. Just maybe not this week :( Boo:(