Monday, August 17, 2009

Where The Heck Have I Been – Part 2

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately.  Some may say that’s a bad thing ;)  But, I have been wrestling with how to go about the rest of my weight loss journey and get to that elusive status of reaching “goal” and becoming a Lifetime Weight Watcher member.  It especially bothered my on July 29th.  That was my 2 year anniversary of joining Weight Watchers and even though I kept telling myself that it doesn’t matter how long it takes, it mattered on this day.  Jeez, 2 years.  I would have thought I would have made it to goal by now. But, I haven’t.  And I have been playing with the same 5-7 pounds since January.  It’s been very discouraging.   Anyway, that, along with some other family stuff, threw me into a superfunk that lasted up until last week.  A superfunk consists of tons of emotional eating, extreme crankiness, lethargy and overall lack of joy.  Yes, I was a regular party-in-a-box for these few weeks.  I tried to get my “eating act” together many times during the superfunk, but would generally sabotage myself by mid-afternoon on a daily basis.  Then, my pants got tight and I got really scared.  I did not want to have to buy new clothes in sizes I have seen before.  No way.  So, I came to a pretty extreme decision.  I decided that I would not be worrying about how many POINTS/calories that I can/should eat in a day.  I decided I will trust myself to eat according to my body’s needs.  Basically, I will eat when I’m hungry, eat what my body craves and stop when I am satisfied.  Before you all think that I have completely gone nutso, I did set up some “rules” for myself, including the #1 rule that if I find that I can’t follow through with this new plan and I start going in the wrong direction, I will know that I am not quite ready to fully trust myself to eat, well, like a “naturally thin” person.  So, that’s where I’m at right now.  I guess I can call this another one of my crazy “experiments”.  I really do love the Weight Watcher program.  I know it works;  I can attribute 70 lbs. lost to following the plan.  But, I feel like I’m ready for something different;  not another plan, just a different way to approach how I eat.  I’ll talk more about my thoughts on this in the coming posts so as to not  write a novel tonight for you guys!  Let’s get to the food!

 

I have been totally digging this cereal the past week…

101_2107 

I had about a 1/2 cup topped with some blueberries and unsweetened vanilla Almond Breeze…

101_2110

Another change I’ve made is to wean myself from Splenda.  I have been doing my coffee with some fat-free half and half or skim milk and I’ve been liking it…

101_2123

For lunch, I was in the mood for a tofu scramble.  In the mix…

  • 1/2 block of Nasoya Lite Firm Tofu
  • 2 tbsp. chopped red onion
  • handful of sliced baby bella mushrooms
  • 1/4 c. chopped roasted red pepper
  • slice of 2% cheese
  • s + p

Filling and just right…

101_2131

I need a little crunch to go with it.  Remember these guys???

101_2134

They don’t scare me so much anymore!  It’s the new attitude ;P

 

I invited Gram over for dinner tonight.  In honor of her joining us, I made her green beans recipe along with Parmesan Chicken Cutlets and roasted sweet potatoes… 

101_2140

I felt satisfied with dinner, so no dessert.  Are you guys wondering who the heck I am???  I know, it seems crazy for me to not have dessert, but I’m not missing it so much right now, so I’m ridin’ the wave =)

Before I hit the hay, I wanted to say thank you to everyone for the warm welcome back!  It feels so good to be blogging again and I’m looking forward to catching up with everyone’s blogs, too!

Have a great night =)

12 comments:

theskinnyplate said...

You'll find the perfect lifestyle for yourself sooner or later. 70lbs is amazing progress already. You should be very proud of yourself.

Andrea@WellnessNotes said...

Sorry you were stuck in a superfunk, but it happens to all of us. And often, real change for the better comes out of it in the end.

Your new plan sounds exciting, and it seems to me that you have been doing lots of thinking. I look forward to reading more about it in your next posts.

Great food; I especially loved dinner! :)

Good luck with your new plan. And, again, it's good to have you back! :)

MochaTrina@Me So Hongry... said...

I can relate to residing in Funkytown, and I pray that you get your groove back. Your parmesan chicken really looked good. Good luck with your new plan and keep us posted.

Terri said...

You know, sometimes all we need to do is sit back and reflect. I think you will do just fine. It isn't fair that we have to think about how to eat right ALL the time. I wish I was a person that didn't think about it, that it just came naturally. But I'm not, it works better for me to write down every single thing I eat, otherwise I just go all crazy.
Good luck with your new plan and everything else that is going on. :-)

Miz said...

so glad youve worked your way out of funky town---or at least enough to lean on the collective US to carry you the rest of the way.

I CAN SO RELATE TO IT ALL...

TjRenee said...

I think you're onto something. Switching it up isn't bad at all. I've been counting calories since I started this whole weight loss thing. Now I'm flatlining or gaining.

I'll be watching and reading to see how this goes for you. And might even join you at some point. I know I've GOT to do something different.

Good luck and soooooo happy you're back!!

Jenn said...

I don't think you're crazy AT ALL. I think what you're doing is something we all should be able to do at some point! Who wants to count POINTS for the rest of her life?! Or calories?? Eventually, we should know our bodies, know what is good for us, and trust our instincts.
I hope this works for you and gets you excited and motivated!! You've come so far, you can make it the rest of the way!

Amanda said...

Marisa - I too have been struggling with the last 7-10 lbs since Jan. My 2 years on WW was in May and I know the feeling. I should be there (goal) by now. But I also know that if I happen to stay the weight I am (80 lbs down), the rest of my life, It's better than were I was. But I am determined to get there. This week was a new commitment from me too.

Good luck with your new system. I have contemplated it but decided to just be committed with counting pts for now. Good luck, it will be exciting to see it work for you.

Wendy said...

Oh Marisa! You just described my whole summer!!!! How did you know me so well!!!!?????!!! I hope to get back on track for good! thank you for coming back. I missed you!!!!

Jessica said...

Yay, you're back!!

Heather said...

Oh girl! I feel your superfunk & have just dug myself out of a little hole that I was in. I have been with WW since 2003 (made Lifetime in Sept 2006) so I understand thinking that things should go faster! I think giving yourself a break from the program is a good idea. I did that myself but always find myself going back to what I know.

I am rooting for you!

Shawnee said...

I'm glad to see you back! You've done amazing thus far and I know you'll find your groove soon. :)