Monday, January 5, 2009

Sequestered

I am sequestered in my room right now, away from my family members. Not because they are annoying, (well at least not so far tonight) but because if I stay downstairs with them, I will continue to eat. I am in a snacky mood tonight and I already overate a little, so I'm trying to nip any further damage in the bud!

Let me backtrack to lunch when things were looking a little better...
For lunch, I popped one of these guys in the micro...



I think I have posted about these before; they are so good! I find them in the natural foods section of my local Giant. They "taste like chicken"!! Imagine that. A good buy for only 2 Points. I had it on an Arnold Sandwich Thin (I can never be without these now!) with some lettuce and 2% cheese. A sliced apple and (you know I gotta have 'em )Kettle Baked Potato Chips filled up the rest of the plate...


For my afternoon nosh, I had 2/3 c. plain yogurt, 4 sliced strawberries and a scant 1/4 c. of my Cinnamon Granola...

Alright, here's where things started going a little awry. I made it a point to watch Oprah today because she was going to announce to the world for the zillionth time why she has regained her weight. I watched her tell her story and I really felt for her; really connected with her tales of woe. Then, I felt instantly depressed because if Oprah can't get this flippin weigh loss thing down, with all of her personal chefs, spiritual gurus and personal trainers then how the heck am I gonna do this???!!!! Ugh! I don't know why it bothered me, but it did. I got too caught up in it and I shouldn't let Oprah mess me UP! I'm not blaming her really, it's not her fault that I can't control myself. Anyhow, while watching the show, I was in the process of preparing this very healthy dinner of baked chicken drumsticks with roasted fennel and carrots. I also pulled out a Sundried Tomato and Garlic Roll from the freezer to go with it...


While I was roasting this lovely, healthy dinner (hear that, Oprah!!), I shoveled a large handful of pretzel sticks, a small string cheese and 4 real potato chips. Greaaaat :l Then, I sat down to eat the nice healthy dinner in a 'scarf it down to just get it over with' way. Not an example of mindful eating. At this point, I am still a bit depressed and have now added stressed because I just ate crap I didn't need/want and I have signed myself up for the BLBE 2 and now I fear that I will suck royally at this and totally let my team down:( In an effort to bring myself out of this depressed eating state, I made cookies! WHAT??? I know. I believe it has already been established that I need counseling in this area:P Thankfully, I made a healthy -ish cookie. I came up with a pumpkin choco-chip cookie to use up the rest of my leftover canned pumpkin (yeah, that's why I did it). I ate two of these for 2 Points...



Which brings me back to my room where I have fled from the clutches of cookies and chips. I made some tea and decided to post early to signify the end of the eating. Now I can get to bed early and spend some quality time with the husband where he can breathe all over me and spread his bubonic plague. Ooooh, can't wait :P

11 comments:

Angie All The Way said...

Love your food :-)

I thought that about Oprah (I think i have it DVRd to watch later). If she can't do it, what hope do we have, right? Wrong. Why? because that's a perfect example why you can't buy weightloss. You won't lose weight if you spend more money on groceries, buy the workout DVDs, pay the memberships, buy the treadmill, all simply because you're paying for them. It's hard work and it's a "simple" concept that we just seem to resist kicking and screaming. She might have the resources, but the woman's just way too busy to be able to sit down and remain focused on it consistently for her lifetime. You can't pay someone else to do that part. That's what I think anyways ;-)

RYC: starbucks

Melissa said...

I watched some Oprah while I walked on the treadmill. I wouldn't let it get to you. I think what it comes down to your individual drive. Just because Oprah can't seem to "pull it together" doesn't mean you can't!!

Those cookies look yummy!!

Sharon said...

I didn't get a chance to watch Oprah, but I think I might try to find a recap of it online or something.

Great eats.

Madison Song said...

oh i'm disappointed i missed that oprah thing..but yea i def. agree with the others that we shouldn't be discouraged by it. she can get farther in terms of fame and money, etc...but that doesn't give her any advantage with the weight loss b/c its she herself who is in the way of her ability to lose the weight.

sometimes i think that "oh if this circumstance were different, or if i had this certain convenience - I'll be able to stop eating like this and finally lose the weight." But even if that circumstance did change or I did get that certain convenience, I would still find myself with the same bad eating habits and still with no weight-loss, and all because i was just changing the "externals" and nothing about ME was changing. so even if i did get all the money and products and personal chefs and trainers, i'm sure i still wouldn't be able to lose the weight. or maybe i would be able to, but i def. wouldn't be able to keep it off if i don't change anything about me.

so in conclusion, don't be discouraged!! =) didn't mean to blab~

Anonymous said...

Hi Marisa,
I did watch Oprah yesterday. I believe one of the main points of the show was that it is not the food, find the reason why you are eating and make time for yourself.
Oprah had lost her joy/sparkle. When she was in the "moment" and feeling good never did she think that 40 lbs. would go back on. I personly can identify with Oprah on the scolding that she gave herself. I will now say it for myself. I margie am embarrassed, ashamed & mad at myself!! Marsia don't feel bad. You are on the journey.

Marisa said...

Angie -right on! I don't know why I let it bother me because I know that no one can do anything FOR you, you have to do it for yourself!

Melissa- you're right about individual drive. I think I lose mine sometimes since I have been doing this so long.

Sharon - I think she is focusing her show this whole week on her battle, so you may catch up with it.

Madison - changing from within is what it is all about; I have to keep remembering that!

Margie - thank you for reminding me that this IS a journey -with ups and downs. I don't consider myself a perfectionist, but I guess when it comes to weight loss, I want every day, every meal to be On Program for myself. Guess I still got some learning to do!

Fatinah said...

I think you're a genius for removing yourself physically from a situation that could prove disastrous. I can't believe I have never thought of doing that myself! See - you're WAY smarter than Oprah!! ;-)

Marisa said...

Fatinah - thanks:) It's my new strategy. I may be spending lots of time upstairs by myself!!!

biz319 said...

I am going to check out those chicken patties. Nice to have on hand in a pinch!

I don't listen to Oprah anymore - I liked her a lot more years ago. Now its as if she knows everything!

My sister and I were on her show in 1991 - it was a show about twins, and my sister and I dressed alike! I'll have to pull out that video and watch it again :D

Denise said...

Aw, I totally felt your frustration with that post. I have battled weight issues my whole life up until a few years ago. While I still struggle mentally, I have my weight stabilized and healthy. Keep up the good work!!

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Okay, so you shovelled. Now figure out the points and since you are sequestered in your room anyways, do some jumping jacks, sit ups, or hell, even turn on a radio and dance, but earn some AP to cover those bad boys.

Recovery is simple. You CAN do it.