Sunday, January 25, 2009

Shot Myself In The Foot

Or in the rear, depending on how you want to look at it :( What this means is that, my main meals had all the components for a good 'on program' eating day, however I completely messed up in the snack department. The first thing that threw me off, was that stinkin book, Twilight! It was so good, I had to finish it this morning. So I lounged around all morning reading and didn't get around to breakfast or working out until way late. I ended up just having a slice of pumpkin cranberry bread and an orange ...



I decided to save working out for later. I was even debating on bagging it altogether today! Shocking, I know! It seems that if I don't "just do it" in the morning, I can easily talk myself out of it later! I did end up doing about 35 half -hearted minutes on the elliptical.

Anyway, lunchtime rolled around and I went with a Health is Wealth Chicken Free Patty on an Arnold Sandwich Thin with lettuce and a smear of TJ's red pepper spread. I was in the mood for lots of crunch, so I had carrots and a serving of Kettle Baked Potato Chips. Not bad for 5 POINTS...

Then came, TOM. I know that is TMI; sorry :0! I knew that things may go downhill from here because I was feeling 100% munchie and I had not many Weekly Allowance Points left. I thought maybe I should make some popcorn for volume and saltiness craving, but I went against my initial instinct and had a Weight Watchers Berries and Cream Yogurt with 3/4 c. Puffins for 2 POINTS...

I also had a cup of coffee and then had about 200 snacks!!! Okay, not 200, but A LOT! Way more than I have POINTS for. It was a bad scene. It's very embarassing to admit to all this, but I am trying to be as honest as possible in documenting this weight loss journey. I wish I could say I eat perfectly and on program all the time, but there are times I am just WAAAAAY out of control. I was semi-aware of what I was doing at the time. Sometimes, though, it almost seems as if I am in a trance; moving from pantry to fridge, munching and munching. Then, I become too far gone to care and I just finish it off. I snapped out of it at dinner. I planned some chicken cutlets, baked sweet potato chips, broccoli and 1/2 garlic roll. Back to "healthy", right???

No dessert tonight! Not even sounding good at this point. I do this dumb thing every once in a while where I'm almost to my next milestone (this time it's only 1 lb. from a 70 lb. loss) and I end up going overboard with eating which makes me miss the target. Ugh. So frustrating! But, this is a journey. I know I'll get passed it. I'll refocus and I'll get there. Just maybe not this week :( Boo:(

8 comments:

Sharon said...

You're totally right that this is a journey. You have your ups and your downs. And really, I don't think what you had was really too bad at all. Everything was pretty well balanced!

Sue said...

Hey, I totally understand what you mean. Especially about the mindless eating part...where you are like in a trance. I just did that this evening, after getting home from my in-law's. Just grabbed a snack bag size (thank goodness) of cookies and ate the whole thing. All the while thinking "What are you doing? Stop!" It is like someone else is in control. I hate that feeling.

But you can do this, and so can I. This road will not be without detours, but as long as we get back on track, we will persevere in the end! :)

Tracy said...

First, I just wanted to say I LOVED the Twilight books. Please let me know how you like the others, especially the 4th one. They say you either hate it or love it.

Sounds like you had a rough day but you recognized it and acknowledged it and now you are ready to move on again. Good for you. I had the same problem last week and got so mad at myself I was great after that. This time of month is never fun ...

Rebecca said...

I will be willing you to reach that 70lb loss girl!

Angie All The Way said...

Nobody's perfect! When that happens, the main thing is HONESTY so that you can forgive yourself and move on. This is so important! Otherwise if you're like me, you'll have it in the back of your head still feeling guilty and it makes it hard to get your head back in the game thinking positively!

Amanda said...

Hey, don't beat yourself up about the snacking! Happens to me too, right about this time of month! I hear you, it's like you are in a trance and you just keep snacking!! It will pass. And you never know, you still may make your goal this week. Good luck!

Katie said...

Good for you with getting back on track at dinner! It's really easy after a binge to just throw the whole day away.

Thanks for your comment on my blog, too. I found the Gardenburger Chik'n patties at Kroger in the natural foods/organic section freezer case. They're not listed anywhere on the Gardenburger website so maybe they're changing them or getting rid of them. I hope not!

Kari said...

Oh I had a bad case of the mindless munching this entire past week off and on. But it won't hold me back, I know what I need to do, and one bad week won't hold me back!
On the other hand lesson learned...like you if I don't workout right away on the weekends.I find a reason not to workout. I proved that theory right this past weekend.
It's all in the journey...living it one day at a time!